SNSD

The vastness of the sea with only the horizon in view was shockingly amazed me, leaving in wonder why my life couldn't get any wider than the horizon? As though life is just a game, we're all the prey that waiting to be slaughtered by the shortness of the life.

Met my friend Zi Hern in KMK as we're invited to there for the closing ceremony. I'm deeply impressed that Zi Hern was dancing SNSD Gee bravely! Ha. So funny and so cool dude!

Don't ever laugh when seeing my pic here! I'm seriously hating the teacher now! And IF u don't know, then click the previous post and read it!

Harry Potter, I still couldn't stop myself from reading as IT's brilliant! Fantastic! Charming!

Hermione, Harry, Ron, Hagrid... ... ... And all the incantations! Elude the bustled life by reading a book of Harry is indeed a brilliant choice!

Getting a bit fuss recently maybe mainly the cause is him. I really tried my best to pretend I'm keen and everything but have failed myself. Stupid! I saw his eagerness to try but I'm really disappointed and tired. Maybe this indicates the end of everything? Just be myself I think. I miss the pre-me.

Real Old HAG!

Cursing, cursing and cursing! I dunno how many F-word I've said today! LOL It's really UNLUCKY and I'll be really glad to 'THANK' the teacher for pointing me out to cut my hair!!! Hell!

^@%#%@&#^*#@!*@& ARGH!!!

Shitty old hag! I've been planning to cut it this week. Just 2 more days and I'll be out to cut it! But STUPID la really! I'm really MAD! The anger unsubsidable! Sleep? It wouldn't do any good to me! Trying to calm myself down, calling Yan to calm down but it turned out that she's busy so I called Veevee up! U 2 are the only ppl I'd find to talk to.

Deciding which course to take was suffering enough, yet this stupid event made me ever more furious! What the hell! I'm 18 you know! Still playing the kind of Barber game> Shitty! Pls la! I'm legally an adult in official term! LoL

Calm Calm Calm Calm Calm Calm Calm Calm Calm

Anyway I think I'd be going to sleep now for tomorrow still have classes to go! Must be laughing the hell outta my friends when they see me! SOB ~~~

Gallantry

Weariness has torn me apart, leaving me no strength to be mentally and physically fitted in this bustled lifestyle. Sigh!

Hate to be dual personality but have to be. The lust for more holidays, craving for rest! What ppl call when getting not enough sleep? 5 days aren't enough for sure!

I feel strong satisfaction on the film 'Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallow'. I found myself crying after seeing Dobby's death. His last word, was deeply touched. And this makes me simply wanna grab the book and read for whole day! Meeting Jia Wei XD.

SO here come the Penang trip again! Me and Wei Shen should definitely be proud of our bravery! We gallantly went to Kedah and Penang without any guidances ( Can map be considered as guidance?! LoL ) So much fun and I'm still overwhelming!

Is it stylish enough? Asking Yan opinion and she said this pic not really good If compared to the previous one. Ha! I really love taking photo now! XD

Happy Birthday to my classmate once again. I'm so kind to be there in Penang celebrating your 18! Happy 18 XD

The photo I and my classmate, Chew Li XD Anyone interested? Ha!

Again lecture and lecture and lecture. My life. I need a normal life!

Messy thoughts

HOME. It's a strong word for me. Many going back today, leaving only 100++ students here in KMP. Desperately want to go home but nothing much I can do to make it true. Wondering why I staying here. 5 days!

The saddening fact wouldn't change albeit how much I wish it. Maybe I'll call my mom up to ease my homesickness as well as discussing some important things with my mom.

16th Nov 2010. 2 months more to go before going back and I really wish that time can actually fly for once. A lot of stuff happening that almost driving me into insanity, trying to get myself up from the black void. I called Yan. Again, I've to thank her for contributing so much time sms-ing me and even talking to me on phone. Relief could be the only word to describe after confiding in her.

1:23:57 This is the calling time I made and we'd have been talking even longer IF I didn't control myself well... From optimistic to pessimistic.

Maybe drowning myself in the world of fantasy can do it? Sleep? Impossible to sleep whole day for me. I decided to take a jog tomorrow morning. Alone. So Nice to see my bro's pic on my phone. A surge of familiarity rushes in whenever I see the pic.

Day 1. I really wanna jot down all the little incidents happen around me. Diary perhaps. Shouldn't waste anymore valuable memory lost in nowhere.

7.30pm. Windy and Icy night again, vividly darkened the surrounding, supposedly I'll be watching TV with my family by now. Funny huh?! I miss every single thing at there. Can I cry IF I wanted to? Not gonna let anything to mess up my life now!

Smile? HAHA

There is always sth we unaware of behind the smiling face, the unmistakably thin veil that hard to see through but yet It's easy to dig through it. SMILE, I love smiling but hate faking a smile when I don't want to. Laughter isn't the priority of life but It makes life more livelier.

Faking a smile seems to be practicing 'widely' but from one's eyes we can see the truth.

So this is it! Later I gonna gather at the hall around 2.45pm for some events. SO here goes again me being volunteer. Reaching Perlis wasn't that happy. For 2 days before I was still sick. Flu and stomachache that made me almost fainted and vomited. Oh my! I so dyingly wanna go back as these sicknesses trigger the virus of homesickness in my body. Esp seeing my picture taken with my bro! SO SO SO SWEET! I miss u my bro! The pic taken the day I going back! As the cover of my phone too! XD Cute huh? HA

I respect myself for eating nothing other than 2 ROTI CANAI in the morning, seemingly my appetite growing smaller and smaller? ( Nah, I just sick XD ).

Perlis. Couldn't find a specific word to describe my feeling now, MUET is tomorrow and I've yet done nothing for it! Good luck to myself, hopefully I can get a good band!

LOVE!

我爱你 你爱她 她爱她 她爱他
你爱我 我爱他 他爱他 他爱她

咦?怎么这世界 已经没有人相爱
怎么这世界 每个人都不快乐
怎么这世界 每个人都爱别人
不爱自己

~ Hebe ~

I love myself and I love my FAMILY and FRIENDS TOO XD

Couldn't believe myself that this is the last day for me to stay here and by tomorrow I'll be reaching Perlis for the new beginning of another new semester. Argh!!!

I started missing my cozy room, the comfortable bed ever, I'm gonna miss it for sure! And of course my sweet family! My mom, my dad, my brothers!

SO good to have a bunch of good friends and supportive family behind my back, giving me strength and energy. Being the eldest isn't that easy. I saw my parents hard work, backbreakingly making our life more comfortable. HOME SWEET HOME! Say cheese!!! Smile XD

My youngest brother, my dad and my mom. I love u all! Bye for this year and see you all nest year!

See you all next year! Wish me luck for my 2nd semester!

Ugly!

Development. I still hardly believe that Malaysia will take a step forward after seeing that incident. Strongly and deeply embedded in my mind. Oh My! Wouldn't believe IF I didn't see IT!

Gripping strongly to that stupid belief on how well the world will soon be turning into, now I'll rather believe what I see. Greatly devastated, with disappointment that couldn't be told ( Exaggerated only. Actually I already disappointed ) how impossible it sounded before but yet I now see the truth! LOL

Walking into 7-11 with my youngest brother. I saw no one at the front there but I still walked inside. A woman came out from the storeroom and I veered around to the storeroom side to buy something for my brother. And what I saw was shocking me! Inconvenient to describe here. WHO interested please find me on Facebook or MSN!

Hopefully Malaysia still can take a leap into a developed country for the coming 2020. I can see the impossibility growing higher and higher.

Dusk is always that beautiful. People are always that ugly. Being delusional wouldn't make the life more perfect the way you want. It's always, in the end- Just an illusion. Realize that imperfection lurks everywhere. This is reality!

Semester break.

Disorientated and disconcerted. Life would be a little more beyond reproach IF we stay optimistic the way we are now. Ignoring the heavy burden with a smirk, embracing the life of eternal freedom. Life would be much better without work and studies.

Haunted by the thought of going back to the life there, many start packing up themselves for another journey of life. SO to my dear matrik friends who are going back tomorrow, enjoy the last night u'll have with ur family or whoever u wanna be with for the last moment. And set off for another semester from today.

Happy Deepavali to all, having to celebrate Deepavali with friends was fantastic! Exuberantly taking pics and eating home-made delicacies by Trishan's mom, rather delighted. Spending hours in her house, chatting about the life we have recently.

Hmm. My holiday is coming to the end soon. 2 days left to be back again to KMP. I love my friends here, everything here. Sunday afternoon with Battlefield playing on. Sounds good for Sunday.

230 pics when hanging out with Stella they all, We all so crazy taking photo that we totally oblivious to the number of photos taken, enjoying the moment we have, seemingly we'd have to meet after ending our 2nd semester.

Taking photo with 2 of my ex-workers during our gathering in McD, I really did miss u guys, so much! There's so much to remember, the laughter we have once before in every class, the noise we made that obviously can devastate the whole school, the craps and jokes we made that sound stupid and funny.

Feverish enthusiasm. Meeting my primary school friends. Feeling awkward but turning out to be chit-chatting out loud. It's so familiar, everything, everyone. With a mild push and everything just feel normal again.

The first day began with steamboat and the celebration of Yuru's Birthday. Total 23 ppl in here. I met Si Jing, who I've missed meeting her for until now! Ha. So long I never sit down and enjoy the steamboat.

And yes! Life is infuriating in its own way but life can be real fun after all. Fun because of having a bunch of supportive friends behind u, Ur lovely parents and brothers. Family. I started to realize the importance of it. Reading 'The Forbidden Game' indeed made me on the edge of tears. The long and everlasting friendship is what I longing for. Bye all and meet u guys next semester break!

Havoc

Well Well Well...

It's Thursday again and I wouldn't dare to think of the approaching day of going back to KMP. Monotonous ever the life there, relaxation wouldn't find its way to my side, as if there's a curse that would restrain me from getting myself relax. LOL. I hate the life there but love it too! What a complicated feeling after all?

A spate of incidents happened recently. Thousands of people fleet from their homeland. Havoc's happening that It's already caused 3 deaths in Kedah. First the unprecedented hurricane invaded our country, leaving dreadful images that etched deeply in our mind. Followed by the non-stop rain, pouring mercilessly on the northern region and eventually flooding that area.

Going back to KMP? LOL

Tiara Beach Resort

One should treasure anything they have, time in particular. Finals have finally ended with papers and books were all burned down due to their eagerness to destroy it, perhaps the hatred they have towards those subs? I dunno. I was in no hurry to pack my stuff. All were dancing and jumping out of happiness as they'd be on their way home soon.

But I was packing formals and shoes into my luggage, going to a camp organised by KMM's PRD. Dunno why I was selected but going anywhere, mainly because of my lovely brother! Ha. Gathering in front of the library while trying to calm my adrenaline down. 3pm. Feeling light-headed heading to P. Dickson! Gonna have FUN soon! Wow!

So here we go. Spending a night first in KMPk. The college is humongous? Immense? Huge? It's relatively larger in size compared to ours, even the toilet!

8am. We all headed to the south, hoping earnestly that our trip could be ended as soon as possible as we're all sick of sitting on the bus. We finally arrived at the beach side. Due to our early arrival, we're given time to stop by the well-known beach side.

Ppl were all enjoying the coolness of the water. Refreshing maybe? But we only have time to snap a few pics. A surge of adrenaline rushed in again, urging me to embrace the sea. Gaining back my composure as IF I really would jump into it, we all walked away from the beach and into the gallery of souvenirs-buying-stalls.

Leaving the beach side with one last glimpse and going to Tiara Beach Resort for registration of the camp.

TIARA BEACH RESORT. The name of it glamorously attracted me. It's beautiful in a way that I won't be thinking having a camp here. The first day went through without much fun. Only we were delegated into different groups and have to spend 2 nights with different matrik students! The room was really out of my expectation! Ha. Only by my definition I think. I slept with a Pahang guy in a Queen size bed. I was fine with that because he's being all nice and polite, treating me with perfect courtesy. Hope I was nice to him too.

2nd day of the camp set off with aerobics. SO after that we all have to be in our respective groups, going to have what LDK sessions. Seriously the LDK was bored the hell outta ma. I was being silent and quiet, kind of like almost drifting to sleep and all my group-mates were asking me to talk, even teacher! Same goes to my dear bro, Pei Ee. Maybe due to tiredness? ha.

Having my lunch with Hema, my sis and my bro was great, although the food looked normal to me, but it's great spending my lunch time talking to my sis and bro. Ha.

Get prepared! We're going down the SEA! Literally I mean, just swimming pool la. LoL. Playing a few games in the water and I was exhausted! Man! I need rest seriously! ha. The night was excruciating tiring after having fun cause we've to play an indoor game which I dunno what the hell was going on at all. Oh! Really til now I still have no sense about what we're playing that day. Ha

We get to know a lot of friends! LoL. We're just like long-lost friends, taking photos like lunatics wandering around the resort. Ha. I wouldn't regret coming here but was relief and happy to come here after all. It's a great chance to meet friends from different areas, Malacca the most!

The last day we all forced to wear formal clothes. I mean it's because of the closing ceremony. Hours to go before going back my home! After the ceremony, we all took a few more photos before leaving.

Sth is wrong with me? I really love this camp and would be happy to stay for more. We'd treasure every experience we have so we never regret. I miss the day we all going crazy in this camp. I miss the water. I miss the monotonous and boring speech given although it's torturing me to have even 1 session of it! But I miss the fun we have.

Specially thanks to my dear friends especially my sis and bro. I miss the day we 3 together, chatting non-stop and almost anything. It's MEMORIES. And I'm gonna put it in my mind, keep it forever and ever. Irrevocableness. Why I suddenly so sentimental? Nice to meet you all ya! Happy holidays!