Holiday

Dragging an unusually enormous but light luggage across the bus station with my mom and two little brothers followed faithfully behind. Waving reluctantly before the bus set off with a surge of sadness, yet no matter how reluctant I am to leave them behind, still I have to.

The usual stinging feeling was back. Humans are the weirdest creature I've ever seen. Before leaving my sweet home to this dreadful and remote place, I don't like being at home much, mother nagging, brother arguing, everything just not right! But after leaving for months then I discovered the warmth that I've never felt before. Perhaps realization will only come after something is done.

This trip going back, I found that my mom is the best mom ever, delicate and fragile but strong, not the nagging mom anymore and I love her nagging at me. The old feeling was back instantaneously. My dad, his old-self, who will crack jokes, kinda soft but stern from his look. My brothers... How wonderful my life to have them as my family!

Before going back here I got the chance to meet my Australia friend, Weng See! LOL It's been almost 10 months since I last met her and she looks the same as usual. Me and my bro went meeting her at Jusco, although only 1 meal and few pics taken, but it's enough. Really glad to have a bunch of good friends behind, knowing that no matter how sad you feel, there's always ppl behind your back. Love that feeling!

Goodbye

Night without much stars reflects the lonely life of mine, seeking for some comforts but was getting none in return. The wonderful moment will soon be over and what waiting ahead of me is a week of monotonous-cum- suffocated classes, relief is soon died out and replaced by suffering smile, deep frown will soon appear with the usual down look.

The sheer laziness thwarts me from packing my stuff? Or is it merely the reluctance of going back ? For some reasons I hate to admit that though the reluctance is obvious. Feelings, always that unfathomable and profound, hard to express but easily reveal.

The hundred or thousand times I told myself leaving is nothing but yet it's unbearable. Couldn't life do without the leaving part? As usual, I hate saying goodbye.

Real Life

Frantically flipping through pages of reference books, reading through notes in the little confined room, THAT's an awful life indeed! It's the fourth day I back here and everything pleases me as even lying on my bed can be a blissful thing!

My mom was oblivious to my return well, the surprise I wanted to give her. 4 days here already! How wonderful life could be IF I wouldn't be going back to that remote and uncivilized place! I smile a lot, even laugh a lot at home that I couldn't find myself doing so at there. The smile comes naturally not forcefully. I love the way I AM now. =) So happy to see my brother now.

This is ME =)

Saturday I went out with a bunch of old friends!

*Vivian, Stella, Zac Zack and Sin Teng

Okay. SO let me introduce you all the first four. We can see that the 3 girls with me are TRIGO! WOW!!! Ha Well I'm honored to have the chance to take photo with them. They are my best friends from Primary school. 3 which from the same class I was! SO many years but our friendship still the same. This is what amaze me most.

I hate those who are so selfish and arrogant. And I met a lot of people and am prepared to meet a lot more of people with nasty attitude but never mind, i'm happy with these old friends I've. They bring out my happiness and Being with them, I feel comfortable, relaxed and well, happy.

*KS, Woon Sin, Pinkee and Jing Ni

I love my friends. As I say that, I mean the true friends, the one that will be sincere to you, not faking innocent or coming to you only when you're useful to them. Thanks you guys for bringing joyous and happiness to my life. I really

happy to have you all to be my friends and I am proud to be you all friends too!

I love all the pic taken above and below esp the one I've taken with Woon Sin and Stella. Ha Quite nice the lighting. I really miss you all and gonna miss you all as soon as I going back the IMPRISONMENT. Ha But the memory will last forever I guess. Those pictures are the prove of our life. We are friends.

Let's say YEAH together!

To 1023, Sorry for the late reply but you are one of the great friends of mine as I really love being with you, You are a smart girl. Ha LOL. I remember always arguing with you but it's really fun! And I can really get along well with you, love the way you are now. Although quite noisy but interesting! Ha Don't get all excited after reading this! Ha Enjoy the life before when we squabbled and argued.

MUET

Depressed

Tomorrow last paper and I'll be going home, leaving this dreadful, enclosed and remote place once again for a week holiday. Currently sitting in my own room and reading through Econ, listening to Taylor's songs while typing my blog here.

SO wanna be back by now, be back to my lovely home. 'Home sweet Home'. Extricate myself from the heavy burden and stress that I'm now carrying and to be back to my own space, being nicely taken care of. That's IMPOSSIBLE I know but sometimes I'll always immerse myself in my own reverie, wondering the time back before I came here.

MUET out days ago and I quite satisfied with my result. The exhilaration was unexpected. What should I say? Happy I guess. No words can describe my feeling. I got Band 5 for my MUET and am waiting for my result slip so that I can prove myself worthy of that result and not by pure luck I got that. It's really hurt sometimes to hear ppl commenting about other's achievements when they are not capable in doing so, this is the so-called jealousy I guess. I don't expect ppl to be all be good and kind but neither do I expect ppl to be that mean.

An early wish to my mom for tomorrow is her birthday, I wish that I can go back now and celebrate with her. No time to elaborate here maybe after that I'll detail it on how am I gonna surprise my mom this Friday xD

2011

Chalk it up to experience. This is what I will do for this whole new year. Happy New Year to all. I couldn't feel the air of this event, I feel reluctant to admit that It's another year and I just celebrated here in Perlis. Trigger by the nostalgic feeling that , I feel homesick and want to go back so much.

Christmas here, New Year here, even my Birthday will be here! Unwittingly, the date turned 2011 yesterday, the idea of another new year couldn't quite fit my mind. The azure blue sky looks unblemished ever, the day just the same. Merry Christmas to you all.

I wish I could have a blast for this year. The days before have ended, officially ended. Real friends are hard to find but I need only a few. Thanks to those friend that accompanied me for the year 2010, esp Pek Yan! Appreciate you as a good friend of mine. And thanks to my family for morally and financially supporting me for 18 years. I'll be the one to make you proud, Thank you MOM and DAD. I love you all.