Trio to Singapore

尝试。突然有种莫名的彷徨，空虚。一个不一样的人生。

心情有点怪异得无法形容，些许的无奈伤感加不舍。

生离死别是必经之路这我懂，开心就行了！

但，朋友们，好想念你们啊！

28th April 2011, Thursday.

It's a place worth dying for. Haven't been to Singapore for nearly a year since I entered the matriculation program. Bringing along 2 of my friends together Tey and Alsen was another whole new experience to me cos I've never been out to Singapore other than the gang I have before.

Trio of us met at 10 in the morning with white-and-black attire on us. This was the very first trip for Alsen to be going to Singapore. The long queue. Around 11 we reached Kranji, taking MRT to Orchad road, the first destination!

So we're busy seeking for the Visitors center for the sake of getting more infos about the trip we r going to embark on. we outlined the path we going to take - China Town, Raffles Place.

Had our lunch in China town cos it's reputation of great food. Hmm. It's yummy and tasty seeing stall upon stall of great food in front of me as to the making decision part, we vote for the cheapest!

Decided heartbreakingly to drop the Esplanade and Promenade out of our place-to-visit list, putting the Merlion as our priority. Raffles place is another great hit of us!

First the Merlion. We queued for roughly half an hour, and at last we have the chance to meet the Merlion. The Merlion Hotel was specially designed for those who would like to spend a night with that special creature that symbolizes Singapore.

Next, Esplanade mall! Hmm. It's yet another famous place to be. We all walked around, buying ourselves ice cream to ease the sun burn. Exaggerated but the weather really quite hot there.

Met my very OLD friend Kwang Yek. She brought us to Ang Mo Kio. Had some special delicacies and then we all be gone.

The next day I brought Alsen to Cs and night sent him back home. Hmm...

I really miss my friends a lot, the days before. Seeing pics before. It's weird that we all before wish fervently that we will be back soon but now I sincerely wish that the very days before come back alive. I miss my dear friends, my life and the trip- Penang and Singapore. Indeed.

Tanjung Bungah- The best Trip

23.04 - 26.04

Hmm. It's all by fate that we can meet each other, merry meet, merry part and merry meet again. The unusual hollowness creeps in and I feel oddly emo now. Perhaps time really flies? A few wonderful days soon ended.

Penang Island. Aaron's house.

Tanjung bungah is where Aaron's house located.

Really, I don't know where to begin.

Our first day we went out to the Botanical Garden with Aaron ( 元祥), Alsen, Evelyn, Pei Li, Pei Ee, Pei Ee sis, yo Heng. Hmm It's a whole new experience for me to be hanging out with another whole new gang. And yes, after that we all went Gurney Drive to have dinner. Hmm... N our day 1 ended.

It's like the first day we met, and yet now we all are going to depart for another phase of life. For, the Matriculation part has officially ended. Hmm... Guys, I'm missing you all now!

25th April

The very last day of my Trip before going back. Breakfast with Carol (咳来殴) and her mom. After that we all went to temple. We too lots of pics there and had tons of fun, It's worth going.

Ke Lok Si, I've been there before but now going out with Aaron was yet another new experience, Pei Li + Evelyn. It's fun though we weren't planned for that. It's fate I guess. And I enjoy it very much.

Toy Museum, the world largest as the toy museum. Hmm I got no comment on that, visit yourselves! I love toys and I'm so happy to see toy display! It's quite expensive but I don't care, cos I'm happy.

Sincerely, thank you Aaron for letting us to stay at your house. I very much appreciate your hospitality. Ha. Miss u all of sudden! U're a good friend indeed and I truly hope that our visit can enlighten ur life. Tot only 3 days but I feel overwhelming, It's nice to know u. Thank u very much for everything. It isn't easy to meet a good friend, so I'll cherish u all as part of my life I've spent with u guys. Memory won't be forgotten.

Why always the departure so hurt?

P.S i'm a bit emo now since I came back here maybe I feel like the black void is deepening. Maybe memory is the only everlasting thing. All the best, my dear friends... ...

~The END~

Bkt Mertajam

20.04 - 23.04 2011

Have u ever been bustling here and there without proper meal from 6am to 7pm? It happened to me during my Birthday! Can you imagine that feeling?! Shouldn't I deserve a sumptuous and delightful meal, anything but packing!

Hmm... I felt outrageously tiring the very BIG day of mine and was almost bursting out of rage for some reasons. Trying calmly to regain my composure. It's hard when you're on the brink of going-to-explode condition. I left my matriculation in a haste, hurrying here and that.

Penang. First I'm gonna apologize for my rude behavior of being so moody when I first reached here cos I was really dead beat. Really I appreciate my friends very much for once again celebrating my 19 birthday! Alsen, Tjen Wei, Lian Pei, Evelyn Goh, Grace Lai and Pei Li. Hmm. Secret Recipe cakes n total 7 of THEM!

Very appreciate my dearest Bkt Mertajam friends for their hospitality. Especially Alsen Lee for him providing me place to stay, and his mom is sooo kind and generous. It's fun to hang out with them cause I've never been going out with my friends till after midnight, chitchatting about anything but studies. It's relaxed and comfortable.

It's an undeniable fact that the FOOD is so fantastic. The Food Paradise. Gaming for hours and managed to 'put' our name in the list of winner! Ha KMP! I've never done this before in my life with any of my friends for 1 hour. 7 of us to play a game, though it's hilarious, but it's fun and I won't forget you all... Dunno why I feel suddenly emo. Happy moment always the best. I hate to say Good-Bye!

Hmm. I guess that's all for Bkt Mertajam. Thank you Alsen's mom. Could my life be so relaxing like now. Hanging out with friends whole day? Ha. Maybe we should be glad to have the few days. Happy to be with you all. And love you all.

NEXT STOP - Penang Island!

Disappoinment

Discombobulated, out of drowsiness? Perplexedly 2 weeks' time will be over soon and I left 2 days to pack. It's my FINALS, the very final Finals.

Never before I feel so sleepy but couldn't sleep. Never before I feel so extreme, so disappointed over something. It's not that kind of Hey-my-exam-I-only-got-90-not-95 kind of disappointment. That's nothing actually, even my exam fails I won't be sinking in pessimism for 2 days.

Congrats myself that MY ESSAY is out in School Magazine. How proud that feeling, so exuberant and overwhelming the feeling. BUT MY ESSAY with not my name printed in that Mag. It's my essay! WHY THE HELL I so CARELESS to not writing down my name on that essay of mine? And Other's name on it!!!

I learn that,

Don't ever put too much trust and belief in 1 friendship as It might turn out to be nth in return. But some trustable friends are okay.

Could I be happier IF I chose to stay as a mommy-boy instead of coming here?

Have not been choosing to come here, I would not be able to see the reality. Reality is cruel, deep down in my heart, I feel glad to come here. Thanks my MOM and DAD very much. I love you all. The tears were worth flowing. IT'S a platform of LIFE here, but what I see is not the actresses and actors pretending to be good versus bad but the REAL Life, The real human nature, unpredictable, evil and cunning.

笑

看了老恩的部落各有点伤感，

觉得以前的我们是那么的开朗单纯，

笑容那么的真，

那么的不虚伪。

我说,

有时候会觉得笑是很累的事情，

不笑，

又是耍酷玩Emo。

是不是老了?

很不时就看回以前的照片，

有时候想想，

干嘛这么累去笑，

做回自己不就好了吗？

我说，

看那照片里的我们，

笑得那么的自然不做作，

以前的我们。

可能，也许，或者是

长大了，成熟了，会想了，

或是看累了虚伪的人，

所以累了，不笑了。

我说，

从前的从前，

就只是从前，

回忆永远是最美最真的。

笑？

在怎么努力的笑，

也笑不出以前的那种自然。

Thank you for being part of me!

Love you all my Old Friends!

~完~

Goodbye

Self-centered. Humans are selfish, ignorant and STUPID. How blue could the sky be? It'd never be the azure blue sky. Perhaps GOD is trying to warn us the coming calamity, the coming Doomsday. The end of the World to be precise. Heavy rain created havoc again- Flooding the small area without mercy. Maybe we all are going to die soon, to the other lane, the lane that we can find peace with each others. The world without STReSss?

BYE ALL~~~

It might be my last entry here in KMP. I still remember first I came here with total reluctance, with no smile but sad expression plastered on my face. The kind of hey-ppl-don't-stare-at-me look on my face, vacuous mind and vacant look. It's been months ago - 10 May 2010.

I still remember my mom, the worried look of hers. Deep in heart she wished fervently that I won't be coming here, I know that cause I've never been leaving my sweet abode. But still I adamantly agree to come but with no enthusiasm. Here I am. 1 April 2011, typing out this entry, MOM, I came, and I did it! Thank you mom. I really love you all, my dear family.

Attending 3 JamuanS had me worn out. It's finally coming to an end- My life here.

I changed a lot I guess, PHYSICALLY obvious and mentally. But still I am who I am.

BYE everything here and I will be officially leaving here on 20 April 2011.

Thank you my LOVELY classmate ,

For U accompanying me 2 sem.

Sorry IF I offended you. Really!

To Chew Li,

It's been almost a year I same class with you, when I first came here, I didn't really dare to talk to you cause you looked fierce and scary, serious professional look! Ha

But hey man! You're not that serious as you look, you're talkative in many WAYS, a way more noisy than I thought, and you're funny, actually quite caring and kind to the others la ( I know you're smiling now, I hardly praise ppl! ha ) But I'm glad to know you, It's like destiny that we both are to be in the same class. Ha SO I enjoy the whole schooling-with-you days. Will definitely miss you! And real sorry for everything I've done, purposely or unintentionally ( LOL Sure must be unintentionally la ) xD

To A3T5,

The best class I've ever had, Miss you all guys and girls ( Only 4 guys including me == )

Sorry IF I offended you all. Miss you all xD

To all my Chinese and Indian Friends,

Miss you all for the fun, for every single memory in KMP, I'm really happy to have you all around, making my life more merry and wonderful. Especially Hema my sister, must take care yourself, don't be too kind! xD Thx everyone here I really enjoy the life here. Thx ya She Mei for being a good daughter, my Kuliah-mates A3! Daniel, My Ping Pong companion! So loyal! xD Taye, Yp, SK, Teaw! Ke Xin, Mei sis, 2 Oois, Lian Pei sis! Ha And all Johore ppl! Really happy to meet you all. Kok Leong the CUTE guy! Ha. Poh Yee, Zhi Yung my marching gang, My roommates! Kwan Shen also for always being so helpful and kind Ha

P.S I'll remember those who worth remember.

Merry meet, merry part and merry meet again! Ha

Thx my Syaufik from the very beginning being my roommate xD

我说：其实还真的有点不舍得，看看四周，已经两个学期了，十个月了，从当初的不想来，到现在的不舍，有点矛盾。

我在说：真的谢谢所有的一切，让所有的一切都留在美丽的回忆吧。。。

也在此谢谢一些一直鼓励我的朋友，没有你们真的我不懂会怎样! Really appreciate you all and I'm so glad to have you all! Thx my mom also! I love you SO much! And my dad and bros

And I wish myself Happy Birthday. Should thank my Dad and Mom, IF not for them. I won't be here!

~BYE Perlis~

Written date ~ 1 April 2011

Published Date ~ 20 April 2011